Assalamualaikum!

Sooo... Mom has been telling me that I look a bit stressed these days. Ibu, can't you see that I'm totally fine? *chomps on more food*

Life is actually good these days, I feel more like a normal human now, since I have my Angah here who keeps bringing me back to where I should be when I started to slightly swerve from the right path (told you how evil these 3 months of break can be). But I guess it's the fact that SPM 2015 result is going to be announced soon that's freaking me out. I try not to feel so bothered about it, but mannn, the truth is, I'm worried sick :( I was actually looking forward to this Thursday, because, hey, at least I can meet my friends and teachers again. But Dad insisted that the whole family should see Angah off at the airport ON THAT SAME DAY, since that will be the last time she's flying back to Beijing and all... Apparently that is more important than my SPM result? Bummer.

The thought that I might not be able to meet some of my close friends again saddens me a lot. Therefore I'm just gonna pray that Allah will grant us the chance to see each other again in the future. InsyaAllah. Who knows we might be reunited in the same university, studying the same course, probably bump into each other in a coffee shop somewhere in London? Allah works wonders, we just have to keep our faith in Him.

All these time, I've been praying to Allah to grant the best results for my friends and I, and to repay all of our efforts with results that will make our parents and teachers happy. But I guess those alone are not enough. I personally think that we should pray to Him that He will grant us grades that will bring us closer to Him, be it 9A+ or 9C-. I mean, what's the use of getting 9A+ but you get all riya' over it, and totally forgets about Allah who helped you in times you were struggling to answer your exam questions? Or maybe you get 9C- and you feel like it's the end of the world and that Allah is being totally unfair to you even though you worked so hard for good grades.

People might have so much expectations on you that it makes you worried that you're gonna let them down if you don't get the results like what they expected. I, too, feel the exact same way. But then again, who is it that we are actually supposed to impress? The humans around us or our Creator? Just... shake those worries off and have good thoughts in Him. You know how hard you worked for this, and surely Allah knows it too. Although people might judge your result, it's Allah alone who has the right to judge you and your efforts.

Whatever is printed on that piece of paper this Thursday, I hope everyone will be able to accept it with open hearts, and be grateful for what they get. Surely, Allah has so, so much in store for us. He only wants what's good for us. Even good grades alone will not guarantee you a happy life in this world and the hereafter. What also matters are your effort and your connection with Him and the people around you. And nature too, of course.

3rd March is so, so, close now. Therefore keep praying, and re-check your niat. Do good to everyone, with the sole purpose of pleasing Allah. I pray for the best of us 98 kids :)

Oh wait we are not even kids anymore... *sighs* Time flies so fast...

Assalamualaikum!

Sooo... Mom has been telling me that I look a bit stressed these days. Ibu, can't you see that I'm totally fine? *chomps on more food*

Life is actually good these days, I feel more like a normal human now, since I have my Angah here who keeps bringing me back to where I should be when I started to slightly swerve from the right path (told you how evil these 3 months of break can be). But I guess it's the fact that SPM 2015 result is going to be announced soon that's freaking me out. I try not to feel so bothered about it, but mannn, the truth is, I'm worried sick :( I was actually looking forward to this Thursday, because, hey, at least I can meet my friends and teachers again. But Dad insisted that the whole family should see Angah off at the airport ON THAT SAME DAY, since that will be the last time she's flying back to Beijing and all... Apparently that is more important than my SPM result? Bummer.

The thought that I might not be able to meet some of my close friends again saddens me a lot. Therefore I'm just gonna pray that Allah will grant us the chance to see each other again in the future. InsyaAllah. Who knows we might be reunited in the same university, studying the same course, probably bump into each other in a coffee shop somewhere in London? Allah works wonders, we just have to keep our faith in Him.

All these time, I've been praying to Allah to grant the best results for my friends and I, and to repay all of our efforts with results that will make our parents and teachers happy. But I guess those alone are not enough. I personally think that we should pray to Him that He will grant us grades that will bring us closer to Him, be it 9A+ or 9C-. I mean, what's the use of getting 9A+ but you get all riya' over it, and totally forgets about Allah who helped you in times you were struggling to answer your exam questions? Or maybe you get 9C- and you feel like it's the end of the world and that Allah is being totally unfair to you even though you worked so hard for good grades.

People might have so much expectations on you that it makes you worried that you're gonna let them down if you don't get the results like what they expected. I, too, feel the exact same way. But then again, who is it that we are actually supposed to impress? The humans around us or our Creator? Just... shake those worries off and have good thoughts in Him. You know how hard you worked for this, and surely Allah knows it too. Although people might judge your result, it's Allah alone who has the right to judge you and your efforts.

Whatever is printed on that piece of paper this Thursday, I hope everyone will be able to accept it with open hearts, and be grateful for what they get. Surely, Allah has so, so much in store for us. He only wants what's good for us. Even good grades alone will not guarantee you a happy life in this world and the hereafter. What also matters are your effort and your connection with Him and the people around you. And nature too, of course.

3rd March is so, so, close now. Therefore keep praying, and re-check your niat. Do good to everyone, with the sole purpose of pleasing Allah. I pray for the best of us 98 kids :)

Oh wait we are not even kids anymore... *sighs* Time flies so fast...